My pregnancy journey baby number two

My predictions for Julianna

Vegis she will like? Peas and corn.

When will she sit on her own? At the end of 6 months 7 the latest.

Fruit she will like? All. I think her favourite will be bananas and strawberries and apple sauce of course!

When will she crawl? 7 or 8 months old.

First word? Dada.

First teeth and where? Bottom left.

When will she furniture walk? 10 months old.

When will she walk? 13 months old.

Julianna's 4 month update

Julianna is a couple weeks past 4 months old so I thought I would update on her progress.

- Her head has become more steady however her body still flops around as she is pretty aggressive.

- She seems to have started teething as her top is often damp from drool.

- Unfortunately she got sick for the first time and she has been crying a lot.

- During belly time she can hold up her shoulders for awhile however she still bops down and up.

- Julianna did try some banana pudding and she did like it however it was a treat not something she will receive often.

- Today or tomorrow we will pick up some organic peas and carrots. I will start her on carrots first. I don't believe in cereal because its a glucose product and rice contains arsenic plus it's bland and I prefer for natural things that aren't processed.

- Her weight is about 15/16lbs.

- She discovered she can chew on her hands a couple of weeks ago.

- When I place her in a nursing pillow with a blanket behind her she tries or actually sits up forward.

- She loves to munch on my fingers.

- Recently she learnt to grab things like my hair and Devon's necklace.


Overall Julianna is just such an amazing baby I love being her mother, she has tested me as a mother the past few days because she has been sooooooooo cranky from being sick however I know it's only because being sick is tough and probably really scary. I hope in the upcoming months I can keep her motivated so she can learn to sit up and eat well. From they're I hope she can crawl and then walk.

Weigh in 3

So my weight is.....


146lbs!



Yay I really don't know how I managed to loose a pound considering it was my birthday week however I think it's because I ate well 5 out of 7 days and I did a lot of walking.

I am sick so this week I don't know what my weigh in will be like. I can't really exercise and my appetite is pretty shot Just trying to keep hydrated.

Why I'm slacking

I'm sick. My daughter is and my son is going through major crankiness issues so I will have up a weigh in post as soon as possible I just need some time :(

Sick

So I got sick a couple nights ago thus why I haven't really been blogging anyways I will weigh in either today or tomorrow and I need to do an update on Juju she is sick but luckily it's nothing major anyways I hope you all are doing better!

Birthday Baby!

So yesterday was my "special day" lol To be honest it started off as shit like I'm going to cry because this is not only a shitty morning but it just happens to be on my Birthday that I'm not fond of probably because it is shit 75% of the time.

Anyways my parents took us all out to dinner and it was nice but after I couldn't wait to just be home.

Today I went on a shopping spree in Toronto and it was really nice. I will have up a haul on my channel probably in 4 or 5 days and I will probably have up my favourites this weekend if all goes well.


Well I hope you all had a lovely week

Work it until you sweat it

So this morning I cheated and weighed myself and 151lb popped up. I exercised for 15 minutes and cleaned for a hour and curiosity got the best of me because I stepped back on the scale to see my weigh went down to 147lbs.

I do tend to carry a lot of water weight so if you're like me I would recommend weighing yourself after you exercise and/or clean.

Happy weight loosing!

Check back this Sunday or Monday :)

My struggles with anorexia athletica part 2

I'm at the point of my life were I've had two babies close in age and now I have a lot of extra weight that I just can't stand. I don't expect to be 118lbs but I do want to be 20lbs lighter.

I reweighed myself to find I'm weighing in at 150lbs. My old scale was reading wrong so it was devastating to see and hell ya it's temping to want to start eating less and exercising like crazy but I know it's not right and I need to treat my body properly. After all it graced me with two of the most precious gifts.


Gaining weight was a sacrifice, it taught me what's really important. Unfortunately not all women get that reality check, for some women it will always be about that number on the scale.


I remember when I would go out with friends and they would ask why I wasn't hungry or why I didn't want to eat or did I have a problem and I would just say I wasn't hungry. I remember having such negative thoughts while they were just trying to help, just trying to be a real friend.



Real friends ask the tough questions and can be "too" bold but it's because they care. Fake friends are the ones that look away.


I may be heavier then I would like to be but I won't let that define me. I will get healthier and I will be aware of the fine line I could cross.

Remember to eat a good amount of calories you can check health charts to figure out how much you should be consuming. Also be careful how much you exercise as there is such thing as too much. I hope you found this blog insightful if you struggle with a disorder I recommend you seek help and if you know someone with a disorder just be there for them in the best way you can.

Reweight

So I got a new scale and its showing I'm at 150 grrr! My boobs are full as I am quitting pumping so hopefully by Sunday My boobs will be drained and I can start proper weigh ins.

I will be deleting my old weigh ins as they were inaccurate. I might of lost weight or stayed the same.

As of today I am 150lbs and I will continue weigh ins and updates on Sundays/Mondays.

My struggle with anorexia athletica

This is a post that is very difficult to talk about because its still with me and its a constant struggle but its something I need to talk about because it may be able to help someone else out.

This will be a two part post. First I'm going to share my story and how it effects me to this very day. The second part will be about how I prevent it and my struggles with it and stories about situations I was in because of it.


Anorexia athletica started when I was just 15. I was going through a lot of drama with school, my family and with boys so my diet and exercise routine started to become very intense. I would try to eat around 800 calories a day (I'm 5'6).
Anorexia athletica made me constantly want to exercise, I wanted to walk everywhere and exercise for up to an hour a day. I remember being so sick and just having to exercise, I injured myself frequently from over exercising and I would still try to exercise and if I felt I couldn't exercise well then I would eat even less.

I remember being in denial on and off. People would say I had a problem and I thought they're so judgemental and I just wanted to be healthy but no I had a problem. The sad part is I wore a size 1 yet I would see a fat girl in the mirror. My stomach was never ever flat enough and my thighs would bring tears to my eyes.

I just wanted to look beautiful. I just wanted to be told I was beautiful and I just wanted to feel beautiful.

When I was 16 turning 17 I went to Calgary to visit my cousin and boyfriend and they fattened me up with fast food and I didn't really have privacy to exercise so when I got home I felt horrible, I was lost. Not only did I gain 5-10lbs but I wasn't in love with my boyfriend anymore and my world just felt dizzy.

Once again anorexia athletica started back up but it wasn't as severe. I went through a couple boyfriends, I discovered my passion for makeup and I met a great guy (Devon).

Being with Devon made me feel happy and I still battled with anorexia athletica but it was a lot better however at times it did get bad. After awhile of dating we found out we were expecting out first baby. I exercised until I was 3/4 months pregnant nothing to intense and I ate like crazy. It was gaining a lot of weight I even cried about it but I knew it was for my baby boy and that got me through it.

Once my son was born my appetite was gone and I barely ate and I lost a lot of weight however I managed to start eating more and I got back in shape in a healthy manner. Then I got pregnant with my daughter when he was 16 months old and I gained 30lbs and I'm struggling with loosing it all.

It's been tough, it will continue to be but my kids are my anchors they keep me grounded. I would be going through anorexia athletica without them. It's a tough disorder I still am so tempted but I just no it's dangerous and I need to stay alive and healthy for my kids.

A big part of getting over anorexia athletica is learning your triggers and what makes the drive kick in. Mine is when I'm very sad, lonely, feel ugly & when I feel out of control. Those feelings are tough to deal with but I just try to control them and think happier thoughts. Anyways I'll write part 2 tomorrow.

Weigh in 2

At my last weigh in I weighed 148. This time I weighed in at 147lbs.


Honestly I am quite shocked. I've been eating pretty good however I was super busy this week & slacking so I only exercised 3 times when I should of exercised every day.

This week is my birthday week so my goal will be not gaining weight! If I can still manage to loose a pound that would be great ;)

I'm going to avoid gaining weight by exercising everyday for at least 10 minutes, eat small portions if I do have cheat foods like cake and I'm going to try to drink more water.

If you have any weight loss tips let me know. :)

Products I've used up!

 If you already haven't checked out my empties video ft some of my favorite products then you should, it took me awhile to put it together so I hope you like it! :)

Blogging every day, what?!? & a Tornado!

I make YouTube videos once a week but with two babies it can be really difficult so I've decided I'm going to try to start blogging everyday! (Will still make YouTube videos as well).

Everyday sounds a bit daunting but I think it will be fun and nice to look back on :)

In Ontario the weather has been sooooo hot so there's been quite a few tornado warnings so going out has become kind of scary. Today we had to run some errands and the weather went from scorching hot and humid to kind of cool and windy. It started getting dark out and storming. It was pretty nerve wracking but luckily things have calmed down.


Anyways hopefully the weather stays safe here and wherever my lovely readers are too! :)

Fun things to do this SUMMER!

I thought I would share my summer plans so that maybe it will give some ideas to other people.

So for my Birthday I'm spending it at my parents because Devon will be at work however the next day I will be going shopping probably at the Yorkdale mall. It has some very trendy stores like Brandy Melville , Zara and Topshop all of which I've never been too.

 I will also be taking my kids to wonderland which is an amusement park, there's lots of rides, food and even a huge water park so it really is fun for the entire family.

 The following week we will be going back to the Yorkdale mall and meeting up with my mom's cousin and her two sons and we will be going with them to the rainforest cafe and of course we will end up shopping lol...

Towards the end of August Devon and I will be taking the babies to the CNE, they're is soooo much but we like going specifically for the food, shopping and kids area.


Lastly we might go up with my parents to my Aunts cottage however it's not a for sure thing because we will be pretty busy as you can probably tell however she is selling it next year so it may be our last chance.

  Well those are my plans I've worked hard to plan it all out and budjet everything in and Devon works hard so we can do these things.

 Last year money was tight however we still managed to have a nice summer. We went to the beach, zoo, parks, local splash pad, CNE and we had a great time. I would say that summer we spent around $500 that includes shopping money this year we will probably spend around $1000 and thats not including the spending money for my Birthday.

 So no matter what budjet you have you can definetly have a great summer you just gota make the most of it and look at whats going around in your town or local towns, theres usually fun things going on like rib fest, small concerts and parades.

Pregnant Again?!?!?

So I've been feeling very nauseous for days and my digestive system isn't working that great so it made me think omg could I get pregnant on bc?!?

I know it happens but common it's rare and most of the time it's because the pill wasn't taken properly. I woke up feeling sick so so figured you know what I need to know especially because I have been drinking.


The results are......

















That I am Not pregnant! Epic sigh of relief. Maybe it would be a nice surprise in 8 years but right now it would of been really tough because I don't believe in the 2 'A's I believe in keeping a baby and loving it just as much as my other two even if its a major surprise. If I was to ever be pregnant and told my child would have something wrong with him or her like Down syndrome or alcohol syndrome (from drinking and being unaware of pregnancy) it would not change a thing. My kids are my kids no matter what and I will love and support then no matter what.

So why am I not feeling well? We've been having scorching hot weather and my home can get pretty hot so I believe that's why.

Let this be a lesson if you ever believe you may be pregnant however you're on a form of bc or your partner got they're tubes tied, still take a pregnancy test. Anything is possible and it's better to be safe then sorry!




Thought I would share this picture of a peplum faux leather jacket. Cute isn't it?

What they don't tell you about fenugreek!

  If you go on any baby forum you will hear about fenugreek and how it smells like maple syrup and how it will help your milk supply...

 So I gave it a try and I ended up with a lot of acne, bloating and a upset stomach. I don't know if this is a pro or con but my armpits smell like maple syrup! To me none of which sounded normal so I did some research and bam I find out I'm taking a herb that is known to do much more then help with your milk, it's known to help control insulin levels in diabetics. I even read it can help with cellulite. Sounds great right? Until I look at my face. Then I read that some of the side effects are constipation, upset tummy, it can actually cause stomach inflammation and loss of appetite.

 Now to the most disturbing part. If you are pregnant it can cause contractions and other side effects unknown besides your baby being born smelling like maple syrup its called the "Maple Syrup Disease'. I wish I was making this up...

FYI fenugreek can be found in medicine and fake maple syrups so be careful what you put in your body.  This should be a reminder that not all natural things are good for you or safe.



Information from
http://www.webmd.com/vitamins-supplements/ingredientmono-733-FENUGREEK.aspx?activeIngredientId=733&activeIngredientName=FENUGREEK

                I was 26 weeks pregnant here with Julianna, it's a reminder that babies are inside of you and you need to protect them as you would if they were on the outside.

Stopping pumping

It's been one of those decisions that is upsetting. I loved pumping because it gave my daughter liquid gold, it protected her from getting sick and I'm sure it tasted a lot better then formula however at 4 months old the pumping journey is ending.

I've decided to stop pumping mainly because my supply is down to close to nothing, she started sleeping for long periods at night which caught me off guard (I normally pump when she gets up for a feeding) so my supply decreased and going on 2 hormone birth control decreased it even more.

Atm I'm in the stage where I'm just stopping so I'll probably pump a few more times to prevent matisis and then I will be done.

I don't feel like I let her down, due to the same circumstances I stopped pumping for my son at around the same time and I felt horrible. I think I felt so bad because I was a first time mom and I just wanted everything to be perfect. This time I know better, I did my best.


I'm proud to say Julianna had breast milk for the first month of her life, she did need fortifier for a week but that's because she had trouble with weight gain. It was all nice while it lasted however it will be nice to have more freedom and loose weight easier (for my body it is easier to loose weight, when my body produces milk it holds on to fat).

Well I gota get going Julianna is in get swing kicking away wanting my attention.

MY BLOG

 As most of you can see I have updated my blog and I do have adds up!

 Now I decided to change my blogs look because I wanted it to suit me, the old look was very bland & the new look is flirty and edgy. I do have adds up for obvious reasons  and if you don't like them just don't look at them :)

 Anyways I just wanted to share some of my youtube videos with you lovlies because if you like my blog you'll love my youtube channel! Check out some of my favorite videos and subscribe <3

My blog got a face lift!

I figured my blog needed a little tweaking and I'm happy with the results. Anyways I have some blog posts about exciting things coming up soon!


Julianna is 4 months old today!

Cheating on Myself!

So it was my nanas Birthday and I did have a salad for dinner but I also had Nutela Cheesecake and 2 cookies so it was a cheat day however I'm exercising as I type this lol...

Just remember its ok to "cheat" now and then just don't go over the top and get in a quick little workout even if its sexersize lol Sex really burns a lot of calories ;) And no that's not what I'm doing atm!

Hope everyone had a nice weekend :)

Weigh In 1

Ok my scale is shit so I will buy a new one at the end of the month but it looks like I lost a pound maybe even 2 so I feel great and I'm looking forward to loosing more! This proves if you start trying you can see immediate results :)

YUMMY HEALTHY FOOD

 Yes there is yummy food you can buy that taste great and its actually good for you. For instance fruit gummy's, rice work chips that even vegans can eat, chocolate milk, mango's, watermelon, granola bars, nuts, powerade (It helps my milk supply), cheese and much more.

 The best way to figure out what healthy foods you like is by going to health food stores or a normal grocer and trying out new things. How do you know whats healthy? I believe healthy options are more natural and or organic. Some people count calories, some people are like me and they eat things that just work for them.

 I try not to eat bread, drink pop, if I drink milk its chocolate milk because its actually better for you however it's not like I drink glasses of it a day. Eating fruits, vegis, dairy products, protein and grain everyday is important to me. I try to exercise for at least 10 minutes a day and I also believe sleep is very important. I think everyone should try to exercise for at least 20 minutes a day.


 Now I'm 5'6 and I may be 150lbs but I was in amazing shape prior to having two babies within the past 3 years so I know what I'm talking about and I know it works for me so take what I say with a grain of salt because everyone's bodies work differently.

 Tomorrow or Monday I will do my weigh in but I doubt I've lost anything but I shall see.

Weigh in

The number was a lot higher then I expected 150lbs to be exact. I told Devon I don't feel like I've gained weight since my last weigh in around 3 months ago. We figured its because I gained muscle which I think is true because I am more toned and I definitely feel smaller.

My goal is 128lbs but I'll settle for around 135lbs. That means I gota loose about 20lbs. I'm not going to lie I feel a bit panicked. It's such a large number however my goal is to drop a pound a week. I think it's realistic and acceptable.

I did weigh in at the end of the day so I will weigh in Sunday morning and shall weigh in every Sunday from then on and of course report back.

Quick update

So I'm thinking about doing a weekly video about my weightless. I plan on recording the number, some healthy foods I've been liking. I don't think I will talk about the exercises I do because I don't know they're names and I'm not a fitness expert so I don't want to be encouraging doing certain amounts because it may not be right for you however I will say a couple popular exercises I do are crunches because they work great for my tummy and squats to give my butt a lift. I'll be writing about other things but those are the main two.


I might get the scale tonight If I do I'll have a post up soon. If you plan on loosing weight especially after having a baby then I wish you the best of luck! I've been MIA from YouTube however I will have a video up probably by tomorrow.

How to not go crazy during night time feedings

The best way to tolerate a night time feeding is to try and like it!

Ha ha you say that's impossible. Honestly ladies night time feedings can suck especially when you feel so tired you think your eyes might fall out but they don't have to be so tough.

I make night time feedings easier by going on my iPhone and checking notifications, watching YouTube videos and playing games. My daughter is half asleep laying in her nursing pillow with a blanket to support her bottle and of course I burp her and put her to bed when she's done. With a 3 month old it doesn't take long at all. She's asleep in 15-45 minutes and I pump for 50mins (my flow is very slow).

I recommend not really talking to your little one because the goal is to have them eventually sleep through the night without you and that can only happen if they learn to be independent and that it's sleep time not talk or play time.


Something else you can do is think about something your looking forward to like a new pair of shoes, a party or even plan your grocery list, I have! Lol simple things really do make those late night feedings a lot more tolerable.


I have a few random baby buys I just had to show ;)

Baby still not sleeping through the night!

So you wana know how to get your baby to sleep through the night.

Well you just look at there tummy and flick sleep switch of course! ;) Now only if it was that easy!

On a serious note your baby will sleep through the night when it's ready however you can do some things to improve his or her sleep so that they will sleep longer.


- sound machines like the sleep sheep or helpful but highly addictive. ( It took my son over a year to be able to fall asleep without a sleep sheep or lullaby playing

- keep the room warm and the baby nice and cozy

- baths before bed can help tire a youngling

- do not even think about trying the Ferber method until the baby is 6 months old and I recommend talking to your doctor and reading about it


- a pacifier is not the devil, it will not damage your child's teeth

What's your colour?

I've been in love with fashion for years and years, 12 to be exact and it took me 6 years to realize that my colour was Red. I have dark hair, brown eyes and a golden tan and red suits me better then any other colour. If your like me deep purple will also look good on you as we'll as black, and my favorite coral. Coral red, coral pink and even coral orange will look great on you!

Here's a list of other types of people with colours that will look the best on them!

Caramel brown skin brown eyes dark hair
-cream, blush pink, baby blue, metallics

Dark coco skin with brown eyes and dark hair
- yellow, creamy orange, magenta, gold

Blonde hair blue eyes fair skin
-mint, bright yellow, any green, cool pink

Blonde hair blue eyes tan skin
- white, creamy blue, bold green, pastels

Red hair green eyes fair skin
- black, any green, dark red, neutrals

Red hair blue eyes tan skin
- sea foam green, white, gold

Medium brown hair any colour eyes medium to fair skin
- dark blue, navy, baby pink, bright red

Well I know not everyone will fit into those descriptions but I could go on all day so take from it in different sections and play with the colours to find what's your colour :)

Baby girl Fashion!

I'm obsessed with dressing my kids so I thought why not show everyone some outfits I put together for my daughter. I'm not showing stuff for my son because he stains his clothes like mad however I might give in and do a post about one outfit ;)

Everyone tells me how I dress my kids so cute! What's my secret? I've read fashion magazines for over 12 years, I took a fashion class and I dress my kids in clothes that compliment them. It might not be my personal taste but if it suits them then that's what matters. I'm not a huge fan of the colour yellow however it's my daughters colour. She pulls it off with her dark hair, blue eyes and naturally tan skin.

So here is a few outfits I will be doing a following post on what colours look good on different people :)